Happy Birthday Treasured #1

Dearest #1,

Happy Birthday. I want you to know that your future dad and I love you so much now, I can't imagine how my heart will feel when we run our fingers through your hair the first time. We want to meet you and be near you and learn everything about you. We want to know what your favorite color is, what makes you giggle, what makes you angry and what foods you hate. We want to know you. The core of you. The hard parts and the easy parts. The parts that are you are the parts we love.

Birthdays are so exciting. The entire day celebrates you. We celebrate you. (And you get to eat cake and ice cream!) We are not with you today, but we hope to be there for the next 50. We have asked all our friends to honor you on this, your birthday. They are trying to tell as many people as they can about you and your brothers and sister. They are telling people how much you are loved. In a few months, when you are here beside me, I want you to see how many people already care about you. THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU and they already care about you. They also love you because the love Jesus. 

Sometimes when we show people who knew your future dad when he was a little boy, they think you look alike. I think you favor him some. You have the same dark hair. You have the same dark eyes. You are different though because you are you. You have different smiles and different noses. You are alike and different. It is beautiful.

This is a picture of your future dad when he was about 6. I think you might have looked a little bit like this 5 years ago. What do you think?

Your future dad and I want to be with you and near you. We are coming for you soon. We are working very hard to get all the things in place so that we can bring you home to us. Be patient with us, you have waited so long for family and so have we. We have a hole in our hearts now that only you and your brothers and sister can fill. It is the perfect sized hole for 4 Polish kids. Anything less and our hole would still be a hole. We need you all. 

You are our treasure and joy. Happy Birthday son.
Love always,
Future mama